Inside My Head

haha

Stacy Leets — Sun, 07 Mar 2010 04:47:16 +0000

This made me laugh today.

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Planner

Stacy Leets — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 16:55:05 +0000

I have an obessession and am very picky when it comes to calendars and planners. I used to have the best ones when i was in high school but I just cant seem to find one as good as those. What sucks is that those old planners I used in high school are no longer made. Every year I buy a new and different planner hoping it’ll suit my needs and none of them do. I did buy a Franklin Covey once and this one was great. The only problem is that they make so many varieties in planners that its really hard to find the exact same one you want at a store. I mean they have it online and you can custom make it as well, but Im just too lazy to pick what pages I want. Searching around the internet, I did find someone who custom makes things and her planner seemed pretty good. So I ordered one. I get it next week. Lets see how I like it.

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Fakelationship

Stacy Leets — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 16:36:50 +0000

Today I was listening to Elvis Duran in the morning, and they brought up a topic about being in a fake-lationship. It was very interesting because my boyfriend is in one. A fake-lation is when two people are in each others lives so much that they cant live without each other, but its not a relationship. Its completely platonic. As soon as sex is involved, it becomes a REALationship. You can be in a fakelationship with the same sex. Its the way you act with each other that makes it seem like a relationship, but theres no sex. Here, lets use it in a sentence:

Michael and Ben are in a fakelationship. They text and talk all day, and then they hang out at night, to talk about what? I dont know.

Now you try.

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Home Alone

Stacy Leets — Fri, 26 Feb 2010 14:05:31 +0000

My kids at work love watching the home alone movies. They are so funny. Ali and I laugh all the time at these videos. Now I feel like renting them!!

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Valentines Day

Stacy Leets — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 20:22:47 +0000

I love valentines day!! Its my favorite holiday. I decided to have a day filled with surprises for Michael. I planned on taking him to the zoo (which he’s never been), cook dinner, and watch a movie. I planned on cooking Coconut curried tofu with green beans and coconut rice, and I have no idea how to cook so I decided to cook it Friday for me and Lizette. It came out good, Lizette liked it, but she wouldn’t try the tofu. She told me that the day I try sushi (which I hate seafood) will be the day she tried tofu!!

Sunday, Michael and I went to the zoo, had a great time!! He really loved it! When we got back home, I started to cook for him. This time, it came out so much better than the night before, he loved the meal!! I was so happy. At night, we went to visit Maung and his wife for their 1 yr anniversary. And coincidently, they had sushi. So I decided to try it, take pictures, and send them to Lizette. It was gross, I had to throw it up. But now, she owes me tofu! All and all, it was a great day! Michael and I had a good time.

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NFG

Stacy Leets — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 22:50:11 +0000

Last night, Melissa and I went to see New Found Glory. It was awesome. I finally got to see them!! Its been like 10 years since I last saw them in concert. I was supposed to go in November but their show got cancelled. I had so much fun, the show was great. One sad thing, I had no way of capturing the moment. I charged my camera the night before and it just wouldnt turn on. It died! =( And I couldnt use my phone because the battery died. =( So the memories are all in my head. Now to buy a new camera.

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Closure…

Stacy Leets — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 00:51:08 +0000

This morning I found a list of reasons why he loved me, and I realized all those things no longer apply.

He would text me during the week things that would confuse me, making it seem like he wanted to work things out but he never verbally said he wanted to. I guess with that he wanted to see my actions and base it on that. But I cant act like everything is ok until it is.

So today I finally realized that this is who I am. Im not going to change. I cant change him and he cant change me. I think Im a great person but if you get on my bad side, you’re fucked!! For once I had to stop being selfish and stop forcing him to be with me if Im not what he wants. I know I have my flaws, but its a part of who I am. If being selfish is bad, then I need to learn to just let them go and be selfish on my own and move on.

I just need to learn to see the signs of when things go wrong and just step back and let it go. Because things wont get better. I only make it worse. Im a control freak and want things to go my way.

So tomorrow is a new day, and Im just gonna focus on making myself happy.

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1st Step: Admitting I Have A Problem

Stacy Leets — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 23:13:33 +0000

So Im really quick to talk about other people, but not really about myself. So Im going to write about who I really am and all my flaws.

Im an extremely selfish person. I only think about my emotions and dont care how I make others feel. I care more about being right and justifying my actions than listening to the other person and admitting that Im wrong. I will lie to your face to make myself look good. I will say things arent going good instead of saying it’s my fault.

There have been many fights with him and everyone only knows my side of the story, no one knows what Ive done to him. So here it is: I have lied to him, I have shared our business with people who shouldnt even know our business and they have taken my side and hate him for it, I have kept in contact with guys he doesnt approve of, I fight back with him when he’s upset instead of listening to him and fixing it, he has told me things he doesnt approve of and I still do it, I have said things impulsively just to hurt him. Our relationship has fallen apart and its totally my fault. I am accepting full responsibility and I want people to stop taking my side.

Everything he has done to me is nothing compared to what I’ve done to him.

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Girls ‡ Boys

Stacy Leets — Fri, 29 Jan 2010 15:30:08 +0000

Ok. So the more I try to understand how boys think, the more I think I should just be alone for the rest of my life. So he tells me he wants to take things one day at a time and just go with the flow. What does that mean?? I just want to know what is going through a guys head. I dont know if its a girl thing, or just me, but im sorry if I live my life like a planner. No, Im not sorry. I like planning my days out and being organized!!!

So we’ve been together for a year now, and he says lets just go with the flow. Is it really that hard for a guy to say “yes! I want to be with you, lets work this out.” Why? Oh why do they live their lives so carefree? Are they not interested anymore? We’re not just getting to know each other where you can take it one day at a time. It’s a relationship, where effort needs to be made.

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Infinity = Innumerable

Stacy Leets — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 00:19:02 +0000

I had lunch with my boss today to see how I liked it, discuss some of the children, etc. Since I have Alina on the weekends now, she came along. I really dont remember what the conversation was about, but Alina had used the word “infinity” in a sentence. My boss was impressed so he asked her if she even knew what that word meant. Alina responded with “innumerable!” He was so shocked, and so was I.

Alina and I then went to the movies to see The Tooth Fairy. It was a good movie. It had its funny moments. Especially the part when he turns invisible for the first time!!The movie had a good message. It was ok. On a scale of 1 to 10. I give it a… 6.5. Would I see it again?? Once was enough.

I have my 3rd session at Ideal Image on Monday. Very excited for that. I cant wait to have it all over with and then never have to shave again.

Monday is also the day I start going to the gym. I registered for unlimited group classes for the spring semester. It was only $60. I cant wait to see how fit I am in April.

Maria comes on Thursday. Shes staying with me. I wonder what we’re gonna get into!

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